I have always wanted a little girl; a mini me. After having the genetic blood work done at my 13 week appointment, I anxiously awaited the results to find out what we would be having!
Long story short, I found a cute little way to do a reveal, and enlisted the help of my friend and trusty coworker, Carli, to film it for us so we would be able to share with friends and family. We found out we were having a boy. Mike was so excited, and I was not disappointed. In fact, friends reassured me how fun little boys are, and the excitement was growing, and I started picking out my favorite names. Based on my lack of symptoms (though wives tales, I know), I had a hunch it was a boy.
Fast forward to the anatomy scan (see previous post) – we were shocked to find out, that she was in fact a little girl! There were no ‘boy parts’ to be seen.
I called my mom as soon as I left the appointment to let her know. She was excited! She wanted it to be a girl all along.
Then, I had to tell all of my friends that I had already shared the news with that it was actually a girl! Everyone seemed excited for me, and many responses were about how I must be so excited that I got my girl!
But to be completely honest, once again, I didn’t know how I felt. I certainly wasn’t overcome with joy or excitement right away. I felt more sadness, like I was in mourning. But why?
I think this was my chance to finally realize that it had been twins and I had lost one. I had never really taken the time to feel my emotions over this loss. I think the bigger hit was that this confirmed it would’ve been boy/girl twins, which sounded so ideal.
I took some time and let myself cry. I needed to let those emotions out to feel okay. I try to always be so strong, but through this I learned how important it is to let yourself feel however you need to feel, and that it is okay to do so.
Pregnancy hormones can be wild and it is so important to take care of yourself and mental health for yourself and baby!
Since I now have a cute (and wrong) gender reveal video and nothing to do with it, I figured I could share it here anyway. I am pretty proud of it! π
Needless to say, it looks like we are turning into the lucky ones with a pregnancy full of surprises, though luckily, these surprises could be worse. Staying grateful for my healthy, growing baby girl and cannot wait to welcome her into our family in September!
Laugh Often – Rachel









