Favorite Postpartum Products for Mom

So many people choose to focus on the newborn baby (and understandably so!). However, it is so important to remember mama too, and to take care of yourself! If you don’t take care of yourself, it is extremely hard to take care of a tiny human.

Aside from my postpartum kits that I wrote about earlier on, I’ve rounded up a few items that I often reach for that have helped me through the newborn/new mom period.

Nursing Pads – As your milk supply comes in and your body is figuring out how to regulate to baby’s needs, you will constantly leak! I remember being shocked in the early days of just how crazy this was. Your body thinks it’s time for baby to eat? Milk starts coming out. You hear your baby crying? Milk starts coming out. Just trying to enjoy a nice, warm shower for once? Boom: milk. I guess it’s a great thing, but at the same time, I was constantly soaking bras, and having to change them. I ordered these nursing pads on Amazon and have not gone a day without them since. The leaking has certainly slowed down, but I’m not quite ready to test skipping the pads. These disposable pads are extremely absorbent and have been such a life saver for me! The only downside is that they are disposable and I feel like I have gone through so many of them. Lately, I can make it through a whole day with just one set, but earlier on, I was finding that I would need to change them often. I did try ordering a pack of reusable bamboo nursing pads to cut back on waste and spending, but they unfortunately were not as comfortable for me. When they would start getting wet, you could feel the wetness against you, versus the disposable ones seemed to suck the moisture deeper inside. I also found that my nipple would stick to the reusable ones, which was quite uncomfortable to pull them off. Perhaps now that the leaking has slowed, I should give these another shot.

Nursing Bras – Similar to the story above with nursing pads, I was going through bras like hotcakes! Not only were they getting soaked with breastmilk, but they would also often get covered with spit up. Oh the joys of breastfeeding. 😉 I could put on a fresh bra in the morning, and then next time I went to feed Viv, she would spit up allllllllll over me, and it would be time for a new bra. For this reason, I highly recommend purchasing more nursing bras than you think you need, otherwise you will be doing so. much. laundry. I started with a two pack from Amazon during pregnancy because I knew I would be able to get long term use out of these, and they were so comfortable! Once Vivian arrived, I ordered another larger pack because I realized I needed way more. One of the great things about these two brands from Amazon is that they come with the extender pieces, so even if you aren’t quite sure what size you will need, this was so helpful! The prices were also unbeatable. I also ended up ordering some from H&M that are a little bit cuter (if that matters), and I really like those as well.

Comfortable Outfits – I don’t think this one even needs to be mentioned, but I’m going to mention it anyways. After having a baby, you want nothing restrictive, just loose, flowy, comfy, cozy, etc. Time of year can probably make a difference, but a variety of sweatpants/PJ pants, and shorts are a must! It was still quite warm in September when I gave birth (aside from the snow day, lol), so I often found myself in comfy shorts and a tank top, or just my nursing bra. Not to mention the hot flashes that would quickly come on, and I would wake up sweaty if I had on anything more. Now that we are into winter, I am loving the sweat pants and oversized sweatshirts, so I’m glad I have a variety to choose from to suit my mood. Sounds like the ultimate mom uniform, right? I feel slightly lazy when getting dressed means changing my pajamas, but we are stuck at home, so why wear anything fancy? I tend to lean toward joggers because they feel slightly less slob-ish to me (is that a word?), but I think I’m just trying to make myself feel better. 😂 Again, Old Navy is a favorite for both joggers/sweats and pajama bottoms. Having a variety of sizes was also helpful in the beginning because coming home from the hospital you are still quite swollen and holding onto excess fluids, and you also need room for the adult diapers! 😂😂

Haaka – this thing was my best friend in the early days. I still use it (and should probably use it more often), but now that Vivian has gotten bigger and more wiggly, it just took one time of her kicking it off and spilling almost three ounces of precious breastmilk for me to set it aside and take a break. But in all reality, it is a great way to build up a little milk stash in those early days. You suction this to the opposite side that you are feeding on to catch your let down and any leaking. It isn’t quite as strong as a pump, but can still get a few ounces in a feeding. I highly recommend ordering one that comes with a lid, such as this one, so that you can just pop the lid on and stick the whole thing in the fridge once you are done with your feeding session. Before I had a lid, I would pour it either into a different bottle that had a lid, or straight into the milk storage bags, adding one more step. This doesn’t sound so bad, but at 3 in the morning, the less steps, the better. I actually have two of these, which has been so great in case one was in the fridge, or dirty. Often the collection from one session would be a smaller portion than what I wanted to freeze, so leaving it in the fridge until I had enough to freeze was key.

Milk Storage Bags – I guess I’ll mention this one too since most of this list has to do with breastfeeding. The Lansinoh brand storage bags have been my favorite, though admittedly these are the only ones I’ve tried so far. My sister-in-law had gifted me some that she had leftover, and since they seemed to work great, I keep ordering more as needed. I have had no issues with the bags leaking, so I count it as a win in my book! They are easy to label and are essential in building a freezer stash for backup. Don’t forget to freeze your milk laying flat so that you can easily store them and they’ll take up less space in the long haul!

Bonus: Find a good show (or shows) to watch! You spend so much time feeding the baby, it is helpful to have something to help keep you awake during all hours of the night. Something on Netflix or Hulu that has a lot of episodes/seasons was a must for me. I started with New Girl and was really enjoying it! I’m not quite sure why I stopped watching it, but it was entertaining! I also have my usual Youtubers that I would keep up-to-date on their videos and then any shows that had current seasons going, but it was always nice to have something to fall back on, so you are never out of options.

Laugh Often – Rachel

Favorite Newborn Products

To say that our house is covered with baby stuff is an understatement. It’s everywhere!! We were gifted many, many wonderful baby treasures, and I of course went wild buying tons of cute things to make sure that we were set and ready for Vivian’s arrival. Of course every baby is different, so you don’t know exactly what they will like or not until they are here, but we were set with a plethora of options! I have noted some of our personal favorites below that we use every single day and simply could not live without!

Zip up Pajamas a.k.a. Sleep n Plays – Vivian lives in her pajamas. Is it because we are in a pandemic and don’t go anywhere? Possibly, but either way these are so dang convenient, and also cozy and cute; perfect for babe! There are so many wonderful versions of these. Target sells a great brand called Cloud Island, and we also love Old Navy. Both of these have zippers that can go from the bottom up to make diaper changes extra easy! They also have the fold over mitts so you can tuck baby’s hands in if needed. Many of the different baby brands make a version of these that work great! We prefer zippers over snaps, simply for ease, but now that we’re becoming seasoned professionals (lol), snaps don’t seem quite so bad anymore. Pretty much every photo of Vivian are in these types of PJ’s!

Burp cloths – Babies love to spit up, so having an abundance of burp cloths is a must! Thanks to my moms lovely recommendation, these cloth diapers from target are our favorite for burp cloths! They are large, greatly absorbent, and inexpensive. We loved them so much, that I bought a second pack because these too end up all over the house and then in the wash and you never want to be caught without a burp cloth handy!

Waterproof Changing Pad Liners – These changing pad liners are another must have! We have our changing pad and changing pad cover, and then set one of these on top for an added layer of absorption. Often times, once the diaper is off, baby will decide to start peeing. Or better yet, might not be done pooping. 🤦‍♀️ This liner will catch any of these lovely bodily fluids, saving the changing pad cover from getting dirty. This way, you just toss the liner into the laundry bin and pull out another one instead of having to change the whole cover. We loved these so much we went back for another pack as well!

Love to Dream Swaddle up – There are soooo many swaddles out there from as simple as a blanket, to fancy Velcro wraps. I stocked up on quite a variety so that we had different options to try. Vivian didn’t like many of the fancy Velcro ones. For weeks, we just swaddled her in the hospital style blankets, but those were easier to bust out of. Finally, we found the swaddle up, and we were instantly in love! This one keeps baby tightly swaddled, but allows their hands to be up by their face, where many babies naturally love keeping their hands. All while still being contained. This was so perfect, and stretches of sleep started to improve! This will probably be very personal to the baby, but this was our must have, and it was always a bummer when it was in the wash!

Pacifier – We were told to wait until at least 6 weeks to introduce the pacifier to make sure we had established a good breastfeeding relationship. Looking back I probably would’ve done this earlier simply to save some tears and so that Mike could help soothe Vivian. Not using pacifiers for the first few weeks meant that my boobs were pretty much the only thing that could calm her down. Oh well… we are past that now! We tried SO many different brands, and the Nanobebe brand is the only one that she likes! A few of these had come in sample baby boxes, and I’ve since ordered more because she can actually hold them in her mouth and enjoys them. We have a giant bag of rejected paci’s on our counter that she is just not a fan of. 😔

Bottles – Similar to the pacifiers, we also waited a few weeks to try bottle feeding to ensure that breastfeeding was moving in a positive direction. Again, she is very particular with bottles. We first tried the Mam, and it is still the only one that she will take. I tried a few others I had as samples when the Mam bottle was dirty, but had no luck. I have also stocked up on a few of these so that Mike can help out from time to time. Side note: we specifically use the extra slow flow nipples (size 0) as she seems to like that best. Those are ordered separately as the bottles come with a size 1. We also wanted to make sure that she would take a bottle! She wasn’t the biggest fan at first. My mom was the first to try giving her a bottle and she would spit it out often, but finally ended up drinking it. She wouldn’t take a bottle from Mike or me for quite some time, but we kept trying, and I think one day she was finally hungry enough and realized the milk in there was just as good. 😂 Thankful that worked out! Mama needs a break every now and then! I had also received a sample pacifier from Mam and was shocked when Vivian didn’t like it! You would think if she liked the bottle she would like the pacifier too, but no such luck!

Enjoying a bottle with Grandpa

A bonus tip: (if you have a two-story house) Set up a changing station downstairs as well. Her changing table and main diapering supplies are upstairs in her nursery, which is great for nighttime, etc. However, if you spend much of your time on the main level of the house during the day, it can be a pain to run all the way upstairs to change a quick diaper, especially during those early days when you are still recovering. It is also helpful if you find yourself in a pinch with a blowout! We grabbed a diaper caddy and just added a waterproof changing pad, diapers, wipes, butt paste, etc. Our pack ‘n play had a diaper changing attachment that was convenient to lay her on for the change.

Hopefully some of these products will work great for you too! Otherwise, these would all be great baby shower gifts for an expectant mama!

Laugh Often – Rachel

One Month of Baby

The first month of Vivian’s life was an absolute whirlwind. I was sleep deprived, overwhelmed, emotional, and the list goes on. I kept reminding myself that she sure was lucky to be cute because boy was it hard! Luckily, all I had to do was look down at her and I would instantly fall back in love with this tiny creature that was keeping me awake all night.

Vivian was nocturnal for the beginning of her life, as most babies are. Perhaps another thing no one tells you? You just assume that new babies sleep all the time. While kind of true, it’s also so false. 😂 They are happy to sleep in your arms, but as soon as you’d like to put them down somewhere so you can get some shut eye too, their eyes instantly pop back open. At 2am, this was no longer cute.

When babies are awake, they like to eat. And boy did Vivian find her voice quickly. She could go from zero to 100 in a matter of seconds and would scream at us if she was hungry. Not necessarily a bad thing – girl just knows what she wants. New babies need to eat every 2-3 hours because their stomachs are so tiny in the beginning. This doesn’t sound so bad, right? What I didn’t realize beforehand was that the timer starts at the beginning of the feed, not the end. So really, it could end up closer to an hour in between feeds, depending on how long she ate for, burping, settling back down, etc.

In those early days, I constantly had the timer on my phone going and would reset that 3 hour timer as soon as she began to feed. Rarely did we make it to the 3 hour mark before she was ready to eat again. It was sometimes only an hour and a half. She was a hungry girl!

In this first month of life, we were simply running in survival mode. Mike went back to work after two weeks, so I did my best to let him get his rest, though he did help out in the evenings so I could take a nap after dinner. For those first few weeks, it seemed that as soon as the sun would set and it would get dark out, my body would go into shut down mode, and I could barely keep my eyes open any longer. I assume this was a response to knowing another sleepless night was coming my way. Mike also moved into the guest room to get better sleep, so I had our big bed all to myself, and Vivian in her bassinet next to me. It was quite luxurious after being used to sharing the bed with Mike plus our two dogs!

During many of her night wakings, it would be hard to get her back into her bassinet afterwards. She just wanted to snuggle me. It was so hard to resist, but I knew that we both needed our rest, and safely where we belonged.

I took my sleep for any number of minutes I could get. I often awoke in a state of confusion. For a while, there was a period where I always thought I fell asleep holding her so I would wake up cradling my pillow or blanket, assuming it was Vivian. As I opened my eyes, I would realize that she was in fact in her bassinet, and I had lost my mind. There were even times that I dreamt I was feeding her, so when Mike walked over and said ‘the baby is hungry,’ I told him I that I was already feeding her and closed my eyes. This was when I realized how real sleep deprivation was. It is kind of funny to think back on now, but was quite awful in the moment.

We didn’t do a whole lot during Vivian’s first month of life. Mostly because I was exhausted and it was too much effort to get packed up to go anywhere, but also because the world was pretty much still shut down due to the pandemic. I figured we would keep Vivian even more safely away from those big, scary germs out in the world.

If we did leave the house, it was typically for a walk around the neighborhood because the weather was still beautiful through September and into October; lucky us! We had very few visitors, again due to the circumstances, so it was snuggles at home for us!

Exhausted and sleep deprived, it was also an accomplishment to have made it through one month! Everyone assured us that things would get easier with time, which they have. She is only that tiny once, so enjoying those newborn snuggles is so cherished.

Laugh Often – Rachel

Newborn Photo Shoot

We scheduled a newborn photo shoot for Vivian’s one week birthday and I was so excited to see how it would come out! I couldn’t help but melt over the sample photos I had seen of the squishy babies in buckets, and all wrapped up.

Our shoot was scheduled for 10am, so another frantic morning of attempting to get ready. This time I actually had to look half-way decent. 😂 I was smart enough to book an in-home photo shoot so at least we didn’t need to leave the house to get anywhere on time.

We were instructed to crank up the heat in the house, and feed baby upon arrival so she would be nice and sleepy and easy to pose for the photos. The photographer brought all of her amazing props and was a dream to work with. Vivian loved her, and she was magically able to capture the tiny, sleepy smiles and cute faces.

I was a little bit hesitant to book a shoot because so many photographers seemed to be quite expensive, but I am SO glad we did this. The photos turned out absolutely amazing and I love having them to look back on. She has already changed and grown so much – I cannot believe she was once this tiny! After seeing all of the work that goes into the shoots, and how long it takes, I completely understand the price point. Either way, I highly recommend.

Here are some of my favorites! It is so hard to choose because they are all perfect! Mind you we ended up with around 250 pictures from this session!

Photo credit: Andrea Rae Photography

Laugh Often – Rachel

First Week with Baby

After bringing baby home and surviving the first night on our own, it was time to take our next venture out into the world – to the pediatrician! They like to see the baby 24-48 hours after leaving the hospital, and since we left Thursday evening, Friday was our only option before the weekend. Attempting to get the baby all packed up and get semi-dressed with my newly postpartum body that was now somewhere in between maternity clothes and normal, was a challenge to say the least. I have no idea what I ended up wearing, but getting some clothes on was a win. 😂

Another scary car ride, this time a little bit longer. I can’t quite remember, but I have a feeling she may have screamed the whole way, or at least part of it. We did figure out that she liked classical music and this would calm her down, luckily. She also spit up, and pooped along the way so we had to change her in the trunk once we got to the office. Thank goodness the snow and freezing temperatures from earlier in the week had passed!

Our pediatrician is such a gem! She has a sweet and friendly demeanor, and helped to put us tired, and uncertain new parents at ease.

Vivian was born weighing 5 pounds and 12 ounces. When leaving the hospital, she weighed 5 pounds and 9 ounces. At her first pediatrician appointment, she was down to 5 pounds and 4 ounces. It is completely normal for newborns to lose a certain percentage of their weight in those first few days because mama’s milk hasn’t quite come in yet, and since she was especially small, it was extra important to keep any eye on her.

Because she was so tiny, the pediatrician wanted to see us back in on Monday to see how her weight was looking after the weekend, and she recommended that I try to pump some colostrum over the weekend and give it to her in between feedings to get her as many calories as possible.

Saturday morning, I pulled out my pump to see what would happen. To my surprise, not only did colostrum come out, but in a moment, it was actually milk! As a new mom, this was the most exciting thing! Especially with a hungry baby who wanted to eat 24/7.

Over the weekend, the exhaustion intensified. Vivian seemed to be eating constantly, which made me fearful that I wasn’t able to give her enough milk. The hard part about breastfeeding is that you have no idea how much they are getting, and I was getting very discouraged.

Come Monday morning, we prepared for our second visit to the pediatrician. I was terrified that Vivian was going to have lost more weight, and I could feel myself getting emotional as they got ready to weigh her. To my surprise, she was back up to 5 pounds and 12 ounces; her birth weight! She had gained a whole 8 ounces over the weekend. The pediatrician was overjoyed as getting back up to birth weight that quickly seemed to be unheard of. I was so unbelievably relieved that my milk was working out for the both of us. This was just the boost that I needed.

The rest of the first week was a bit of a whirlwind. Not much sleep was involved so I was tired and emotional, which is to be expected after having a baby. My body would grow tired very easily, or if I tried to do too much. We went for a short walk around the block, and I washed some dishes and that was enough for my aching body.

Here are some pictures from Vivian’s first week:

And one of my very favorites; a picture of us in my weekly photo spot on her due date!

Laugh Often – Rachel

Bringing Baby Home

After a quick labor and delivery, we spent our one night in the hospital with round the clock visits from the amazing nursing team. They were busy running all of the standard tests on sweet Baby Viv to make sure her blood sugar was staying up, and her temperature was beginning to regulate. While it was nice to have help, guidance, and any questions answered, we were exhausted. On Thursday morning, we were given the option of staying another night, or leaving that day (so long as Vivian passed her 24 hour tests). I thought another night might be nice, but Mike was eager to get back home, so I obliged.

At the 24 hour mark, Vivian’s tests all came back as passed with flying colors! The care team began their discharge process, and we excitedly began packing up all of our belongings.

Most exciting, but also terrifying was putting our sweet baby girl into her car seat for the very first time. She looked so teeny tiny in there. How did I not take a picture of this?! Oh well. This was the moment that parenthood became a reality. We were now responsible for this small and helpless (but extremely cute) baby.

The nurses walked us out to our car to make sure the car seat clicked in, and just like that we were on our way home. I sat in the back with Vivian, so terrified. Before even making it out of the parking lot, she spit up. As a scared new mom, I made Mike pull back into a parking spot so we could make sure she didn’t choke. (Of course she was totally fine). And then finally, we actually hit the road. I have never been more anxious during a car ride in my life. I just wanted to get home and have her safely back in my arms. Luckily the car ride is less than 10 minutes. 😂 Ten minutes sure does feel like an eternity with such precious cargo!

We were so excited to get home so Vivian could meet her Grandma and her sweet doggy siblings. I had tried to plan out how to introduce the dogs, but we didn’t end up doing anything special. We let Mike go in the house first to give them hugs, had them smell her little hat, and then in I came with our sweet babe in her car seat. The dogs were beyond curious about this new creature coming into their home.

Grandma cuddles were soon to follow with an already smitten Grandma. 😊

I had a couple of outfit options planned for her coming home outfit, but she was way too small for anything we had! We put her in the smallest pair of pajamas we had brought and called it a day, even though she was swimming in them! You’ll notice her feet were nowhere near the feet holes and sleeves were inches too long!

Once nighttime hit, we realized that we probably had no idea what we were doing and maybe could’ve used another night of nurses help at the hospital, but it was too late for that! We were officially on our own.

The first night we were all gung-ho to share night duties. We quickly realized that anytime she woke up she wanted to eat so Mike unfortunately couldn’t offer much help. Cue the beginning of sleep deprivation and welcome to Parenthood!

Laugh Often – Rachel

Jumping Back In

I am so excited to be back! I’ve missed having this creative outlet to write down my thoughts and to reflect on the things I’ve been going through. While I absolutely wish I could’ve been blogging in real time (because let’s be real, those first few months were hard!), I am so glad I took the time for myself. I spent the first two months of Viv’s life a complete zombie. If I had any free time, I tried my best to sneak a nap in because that sleep deprivation was REAL.

I have either gotten used to functioning on a lack of sleep, or we’ve started sleeping more (or maybe both). 😉 Either way, I am ready to share and force myself to take a little me-time when I can find it. I’m quite certain that posts will be sporadic for the time being as I don’t want to hold myself to anything too crazy just yet, but that’s okay! Baby steps will be the way to go.

Moral of the story: writing this post will force me to kick my butt back into gear and start writing again! It will also give me an excuse to look back at (and fawn over) all of the millions of photos I’ve taken of this sweet baby girl.

See you soon!

Laugh Often – Rachel

Happy New Year!

What better way to start off the new year than by jumping back onto the blog?

What a year it has been. January of 2020 seems like it happened ages ago. It started off in the most exciting of ways: finding out we were expecting! The first few months seemed to be off to a good start, but by March things had certainly taken quite the turn and little did we know that our entire year would look so different from any other that we had experienced before.

Aside from navigating pregnancy during a global pandemic, it was a year full of loss. I lost my job, and our family lost two grandfathers. The hardest part was not being able to celebrate their lives with family and friends, though we settled with Zoom visits to see each others faces and share memories.

Although the year had such low lows, I have tried so hard not to dwell on the negativity and sadness, but rather look at the blessing of the many wonderful years we got to spend together. Our family was so lucky to have such great role models and have left us with nothing but wonderful memories from our childhood and all of the great times that we spent together.

The birth of our sweet little Vivian Jean was the brightest light of 2020 and has filled our lives with so much joy. She has given a new purpose to my life which now completely revolves around her in the best of ways.

This New Year feels slightly different than the rest in a sense that I truly have no idea what is in store for this year. I enter with a bit of caution, and hopeful that the world will get back to a place of normalcy (whatever that may mean moving forward). I enter with hopes that I will find a new job that I enjoy when the time is right for our family. Mostly, I enter with pure excitement to watch our sweet baby girl learn about the world around her and grow into her cute and tiny human self.

Here’s to making 2021 the best year that it can be, and celebrating whatever comes our way. Cheers!

Laugh Often – Rachel

Taking a quick break

I have so many things that I would love to write about, but have now realized how overzealous I was being. Babies just sleep all day; right? They probably should… but every day is a new experience, and very sleep deprived at that. For my own sanity, I am going to step away for a quick moment to focus on my mental health and well being and my new baby girl. 😍

In the meantime, here are some cute pictures from these first few weeks:

Be back soon to share the good, the bad, and the ugly!

Laugh Often – Rachel

My Birth Story

It all began at about 7 am on Wednesday, September 9th. Mike had gotten up to get ready for work and had just headed downstairs for breakfast. I decided to get up to pee (for probably the 17th time of the night). As I sat up, I felt a little jab in the center of my stomach and remember thinking to myself ‘hmmm… that was a weird kick’ but I carried on and thought nothing of it.

I used the restroom in my sleepy stupor and then started making my way to the sink to wash my hands. As I walked across the room, I felt liquid continuing to emerge. This woke me up a bit more. Did my water just break? Or was I still peeing? 😂 I sat back on the toilet in utter confusion and didn’t know what to do. I tried hollering for Mike, but being all the way downstairs, he couldn’t hear me. I then tried asking our Echo Dot to make an announcement, but that was too far from the bathroom to hear me. I sat for a minute more wondering what to do. Luckily I had my postpartum bathroom kits all prepped and ready, so I put on one of the adult diapers, along with my shorts, and went to the top of the stairs to call down to Mike.

When I finally got his attention (I didn’t want to yell too loud to freak him out 😂), he responded back with a very irritated “What?” I told him that I thought my water may have just broken, and also asked why he sounded so annoyed. He said something along the lines of I usually bug him with something dumb early in the morning (LOL). I guess this was important enough to interrupt his breakfast and morning routine.

I’m pretty sure I told him he should still go to work. I was so unsure if this was actually my water that broke, or if I just peed myself. It was so hard to tell! It wasn’t a huge gush and seemed to kind of stop, so I really didn’t know. I didn’t want to be that girl that goes to the hospital just for peeing herself. He didn’t like this idea, and texted him boss to let him know that I was in labor.

I decided to jump in the shower just in case this was the real deal; I wanted to be clean. Post shower, I put another little diaper back on and blow dried then straightened my hair. I didn’t want to look like a wild lioness in labor/at the hospital. Once I was ‘ready’ I called the on-call line at my OB office to see what they wanted me to do. I was instructed to come on in to see if it was indeed my water.

At this point I was feeling absolutely nothing else out of the ordinary – not a single contraction. This worried me because once the water breaks, you are essentially on the clock to get baby out within about 24 hours.

I went downstairs to make a little breakfast – my usual of scrambled eggs with spinach and black olives, along with an English muffin with peanut butter. My appetite was almost non-existent so I don’t think I actually ate much, but wanted to at least get some protein in before heading to the hospital.

As I ate, Mike ran around the house grabbing the last few things we needed, and packing up the car with all of our goodies.

Every time I would stand up after sitting, more liquid would come out, so by this point, I was pretty sure it was my water. Let me tell you – it’s such an odd feeling to continually feel a warm, and uncontrollable trickle.

By about 9:15 am we were ready to go, and said our goodbyes to the dogs. We hit the road for the very last time as a family of 2, and it was so surreal. Were we actually going to the hospital to have our baby?!

We arrived by 9:30 am and made our way up to Labor & Delivery. Mike took the opportunity to make a dad joke upon checking in and gave the nurse a chuckle… After signing a few forms, we were put into a triage room to check on baby, and test my fluid. Sure enough, my water was leaking and I was dilated to 3 cm and 80% effaced. We were told we were staying to have a baby!

We were escorted into our official labor & delivery room to settle in for the big event. Of course, little Miss Vivian decided she wanted to arrive on the random snowy September day, so our mountain view room that I was so excited about just had views of a cloudy, gray day, but that’s okay.

The care team decided they wanted to begin the induction process to get the contractions going. At noon, the pitocin had started, and still I had no signs of any contractions (that I could feel at least). Mike had brought his Nintendo Switch, so I sat in the bed playing Mario Kart to pass some time. The nurses came in about every 15 minutes to turn the medicine up, and advised they would check my progress again after about 4 hours.

At around 1 pm, the contractions were picking up and I had to stop playing Mario Kart. I really had to focus on breathing each time a contraction came. They got stronger and stronger, and seemed to be really close together. By about 2:30 pm they were getting unbearable so I decided to call the nurse in to discuss some pain management options. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to get the epidural or not, so she offered to check my progress so I could see how far along I was if that would help make my decision. This nurse thought I was all ready to go, though it seemed a little quick of a progression, so she grabbed the nurse who checked me that morning to see what she thought. Turns out I was closer to 7cm. I decided to go for the epidural at this point as I figured it could be hours more before baby would come, and I didn’t know how much more of this pain I could take.

The anesthesiologist came in fairly quickly to get working on the epidural. The contractions were coming in hot while he was attempting to get it in. It was not the most pleasant experience… Everyone always makes it seem like the epidural is immediate relief. This was not the case for me. At first it didn’t seem to be helping at all. It finally started to kick in, but only on the right side. Now I was feeling the contractions in just one spot on the left-hand-side, and because it was so focused to that one spot, they felt 1,000 times worse. He administered some additional medication, and finally the feeling subsided and I could relax.

At this point, a second nurse came into the room because baby girls heartbeat dropped just a bit and they wanted to put the internal monitor in to keep a better eye on her heart rate. When they attempted this, they realized that she was ready to come out and it was time to push. It was now about 3:15 pm or so. Everyone was in position, and pushing was under way. It was such an odd sensation to be exerting so much energy to push, yet not being able to feel your efforts. I had no idea of I was doing the right thing, but they assured me that she was making her way down.

The nurses would tell me when a contraction was beginning so I could take a big deep breath in, and then push for the count of 10. The breaks in between pushing were very welcomed to catch my breath. I remember seeing the clock on the wall being shortly after 3:25 pm during a pushing break. I decided to aim for a 3:33 pm birth because how cool would that be? A 9/9 baby at 3:33 pm? Contractions slowed for just a moment and then at 3:32 pm another one came, but unfortunately baby didn’t make her way out during that push. Oh well – just a silly little goal. Just minutes later, at 3:39 pm she made her debut as our tiny little peanut. She was placed right onto my chest for snuggles and it was the best feeling. I couldn’t believe I did it!

The first hour of her life was a bit of a blur as nurses made sure she was doing well settling into life on the outside. I held her as the placenta was delivered and I was sewed up from the slight snip. After the first hour of cuddles they took her measurements. She weighed in at 5 pounds, 12 ounces, and was 19 inches long. We were expecting a tall baby, but she is a perfect, petite little nugget!

I am extremely grateful for a quick delivery that went very smoothly and to have a beautiful, healthy baby girl. I am also grateful that the experience is in the past. I think it’s safe to say that those contractions are the worst pain I’ve ever felt in my life, and I can’t even begin to describe how they feel, but they are so very worth it to meet a precious bundle of joy.

We are so looking forward to sharing our journey into parenthood.

Laugh Often – Rachel